Specialising in the human experience of Living with prostate cancer – warts and all

The alarm bells were ringing

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Yesterday, I had been suffering from pleuretic pain in my left lung.  Every time I breath in, the pain grabs me.  Well, it was serious enough for me to ring my doctor to see what could be done about it and his response shocked me.

He told me that they can give me intravenous antibiotics in a high dose to try and control it.  If it cannot be managed, It will lead to me dying and he asked if I wanted to chose that as an option.

Like, I’m ready to call it quits?  Not bloody likely!

There is still too much life in this body, mind and spirit to take the voluntary suicide option.

I have spent four years training this man to tell me as he sees it – what is good is good – what is bad is bad.  Apparently, he sees it quite differently to me at this moment.  But, I know I am not ready to toss in the towel.    Hey Doc, we are not on the same page.

The way I feel, at this moment, is that there is no immediate threat to my continuing existence.  Of course, that can change overnight with an unplanned event  happening that drags me off to hospital – and potentially the end.  But, let’s see how it plays out.  I can’t see it happening tonight!

I must admit, there is not much point to my ongoing existence if I cannot get past this lung problem.  Whilst I am uncomfortable and in pain, all I can do is sit and wait for things to improve.  I cannot get up and move around – or do anything useful.  It makes you wonder, “What is the point of continuing?”  I am certainly not ready to say goodbye yet!


Written by Greg Naylor

8 May 2012 at 12:00 pm

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  1. Don’t go yet, Greg. Your writing gets better every day – have you noticed?

    Ray Dixon

    8 May 2012 at 8:27 pm

    • Thanks for the nice words, Ray. It just shows I am not ready yet!

      Greg Naylor

      8 May 2012 at 8:36 pm

      • Greg, I’ve noticed that since your ‘scare’ in March your writing has become even more sharp & focused. It was always good but I guess this stage has caused you to condense your thoughts even more. And the end result is brilliant. Can you leave me the TV Mini Series rights? Cheers.

        Ray Dixon

        8 May 2012 at 11:02 pm

        • Greg, Don’t you dare go just yet I am still learning this stuff. I still don’t know my way around this posting stuff yet I am still searching for the force.


          8 May 2012 at 11:29 pm

        • Ray, you are absolutely right. As things progress, I find that I am becoming far more focused on the things that I have learned and the messages I want others to hear. Please keep talking to me here. I need the motivation to keep those thoughts being expressed.

          Greg Naylor

          9 May 2012 at 3:32 pm

  2. Lee, you are doing brilliantly. I never expected you to master photos so quickly. Keep up the good work and “May the Force be with you”!

    Greg Naylor

    8 May 2012 at 11:33 pm

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