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The End Game – 6 May 2008

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The results are in …

The biopsy was malignant and the report shows it to be very aggressive (rating 9 out of 10) and to be a stage D prostate cancer … i.e. terminal.

From here on in, it is a palliative care management process commencing with hormone treatment which, on a good day, will keep me going – much as I am now – for up to two years. It is all downhill from there!

So, what do you do with the last two constructive years of your life?

Family and friends tell me I should do all those things I wish I had done throughout my life but you know, I can’t think of anything I have missed out on. I guess that means I am a man of simple needs or that I have enjoyed the journey to this point. I have been determined, throughout my life, to avoid the deathbed realisation that I should have lived my life differently. So far … so good!

Still, what to do with these two years?

The project that stands out most comes from the notes I made when we moved to our 10 acres in Whitfield. It wasn’t long before I became intimate with the property and its characteristics and my notes reflect that I felt I was just the caretaker of this little piece of nature. I reckon two years is just about enough time to ensure that I leave it in as good – or better – condition than when I found it.

Back in February, I was fortunate to have Peter Andrews – author of the Natural Sequence Farming system – visit the property through Landcare to advise on the rehabilitation of the creek bed that meanders through the property. That would certainly be an improvement and two years is enough time to see the benefits. I am looking forward to that!

The reality, of course, is that after I am gone the property will be sold as Pauline will not be able to manage it into the future. Then again, none of us are going to be around forever and I might get to feel I have made a positive contribution for having been allowed to be here.


Written by Greg Naylor

6 May 2008 at 3:30 pm

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  1. Greg,

    It’s good to hear that you are facing the news without regrets to add to your burden. Good luck with finishing a project that will live on beyond you. I hope that you continue to share your journey with us.

    Dave from Albury

    6 May 2008 at 8:30 pm

  2. “I can’t think of anything I have missed out on”

    Well summed up Greg, although it’s a pity you won’t get to see the Pies win another flag but then again, neither will most of us. That creek project sounds fantastic. Those who make positive contributions to our environment no matter how small leave a lasting legacy. I too hope you continue to share your journey with us as long as you’re able to. Cheers.


    6 May 2008 at 10:15 pm

  3. you know, it’s not too late to become a degenerate alcoholic gambler and womaniser Greg.
    Of course I’m trying to lighten the mood in light of what is obviously very concerning news.
    I honestly have no idea about what you are going through in terms of emotions, thoughts and feelings, not having been through it myself, I have no frame of reference to it whatsoever. I imagine it would be something of a mixture of emotions. I’m glad some of them are feelings of satisfaction and contentment.

    It sounds like you have goals and plans for the future which is excellent, who knows how long any of us have Greg, you may be popping a champagne cork to ring in NYE 2012 smiling with the kind of smug satisfaction that comes from proving the medical fraternity wrong.

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