Specialising in the human experience of Living with prostate cancer – warts and all

The End Game begins

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Life is a game of chess. You are born a pawn and work your way through the pieces making life’s decisions. The battles and tactics take their toll and you see the pieces fall around you. Now, for the “End Game”

You prepare yourself for the worst and hope for the best … and then they tell you there is no hope. It’s not easy to accept!

In my case, the report from North East Health concluded that there was the likelihood of a cancer in the right kidney but that there were no other problems. They simply got it wrong … and that made it all the harder to accept. The reality is that this thing is beyond operation and the only treatment is with hormones to put the cancer into remission to be followed by palliative care. The ‘End Game’ has begun.

So, you take the news on board and the mind goes into overdrive. The remarkable thing is that you are more concerned about your loved ones being able to handle it rather than yourself. For you, it is all clear cut … you are here … you are going there … and all you need to know is how to comfortably make the journey.

On the way, I have to pass on what I have learned to those who are ready to hear it. I am not prepared to leave wishing I had told them how I feel and how I view life. It is indeed a big challenge.

Today was the first day of the rest of my life … and I would say it was the worst.

As the day progressed and family and friends phoned in, the emotional shock set in. You talk about it and you cry … you think about it and you well up again. It is just part of the deal that one has to come to terms with. I will be better equipped to handle it tomorrow.


Written by Greg Naylor

16 April 2008 at 1:32 pm

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  1. Cheeses Greg, that’s a kick in the head huh?

    You know I’m usually one of the biggest loudmouths on the interwebs but I’m actually at a loss for words here mate.

    I guess all I can really say is that these medical boffins get it wrong with reasonable regularity so, um, you know, while there’s life there’s hope.

    I’m painfully conscious that I don’t want to say anything that sounds like I’m fobbing you off with some cruddy cliche but I also don’t want to say nothing either.

    I think sometimes when someone comes out with news like that people around them start to act diferent, kind of like the person is already gone or something, there is a horrible tendancy to invalidate ther feelings of people because of illness and of course that’s patently wrong.

    I guess all I can say mate is that you aren’t gone yet and really, in all honesty, for all you (and your docs) know, you could have another twenty years left.

    They do get it wrong sometimes.

    We’re all headed for the great beyond, I guess we don’t all have a time frame though do we?


    17 April 2008 at 12:12 am

  2. The timeframe bit comes into play next Monday when they do the bone scans. I am painfully aware that some people will walk away but I am encouraged by some of the locals who have come forward offering help such as a load of firewood, or to help out with the shopping etc. Please stay in touch Jack as I need to know you are listening

    Greg Naylor

    17 April 2008 at 12:41 am

  3. I guess Greg all I can say is try not to be locked into the idea of a “sentance”. Don’t be like the Aboriginal guy who died because someone “pointed the bone” at him if you know what I’m trying to say.
    By all means, get medical advice and opinion but you have to remember that their’s is JUST an opinion.
    Positive visualisation has been the source of more than one medical miracle I suspect.


    17 April 2008 at 2:44 pm

  4. Greg, I hear Eddie McGuire still believes Collingwood is going to win the flag this year – that should help to keep you going.


    17 April 2008 at 6:28 pm

  5. The sentence appears to be real – the bone scans will give a timeframe. The only miracle would be that the bone scans prove the specialist wrong and the Wangaratta Hospital right … a big ask!

    We all know that a positive outlook helps cancer sufferers last longer Jack but I am not about to fight a futile battle at the expense of the ‘quality of life’.

    Listen to those who know Ray. If Eddie still believes, so do I.

    The down side of that one is that in 1990, my 40yo brother was dying of kidney cancer in the Alfred and we were watching the Collingwood-Essondon grand final. He said, “Well, I guess this is the last time I will see Collingwood win the flag”

    I replied, “So what! I’m not dying and it will probably be the last one I see too!”. I guess I’ll just have to hang around and find out.

    Greg Naylor

    17 April 2008 at 8:19 pm

  6. Hi Greg, My brother mentioned that he had read about you in his paper in Albury and suggested I write.
    Have you tried a Lactoferring and bovine cartlage combination to get rid of the cancer. We have had penomenal results with these medications in Sydney with a complete cure of prostate cancers. I think Ron Golightly is the one you should get in touch with. He wrote a book on his cure from Prostate cancer.
    When I started to develop Leukemia after a bone marrow transplant, I went on to a combination of these and I am still alive after 10 years. The side effects of these are severe leg cramps, and I found that a glass of Tonic water a day, combined with your favourite fruit juice Helps with that.


    2 July 2008 at 1:01 pm

  7. Thanks for leaving the comment on my blog. I am sorry to hear about what you are facing, but this post makes it so clear cut… You are here going there… you are more worried about your family handling it.

    I will follow your journey closely. Thanks for stopping by.

    Tall T

    7 July 2008 at 10:32 pm

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